Thursday, January 16, 2014

The Lady in the red Jeep Wrangler

Dear Lady in the red Jeep Wrangler,

Was it really you? How was it that I did not realise you were at the petrol station all along? Surely I would have noticed such a striking car.

Did you notice me next to you? Or were you worried you might hit my humble car as we both squeezed on the narrow road?

Initially annoyed but that redness attracted me. I glanced again and I saw you at the driver's seat. I continued looking at you who were talking to the man beside you. Did you not recognise me? 

I turned right earlier but I kept looking at you from across the road. Would you have recognised me if I had taken off my shades? I saw you looked at me. Miel, it's me! I wanted to scream as my engines zoomed away from you...

Dear Man in the Next Car,

Was it really you? I was more concerned about not banging into your car with my Jeep Wrangler. I did not want you to feel annoyed that "it's a woman driver". Did you?

The man beside me told me that you were looking at me. He reminded me not to hurt anyone with my powerful machine, this was not the Paris-Dhakar Rally though some drove their Japanese cars as if they were taking part in one.

I saw you still looking at me from across the road. I looked back. I wanted to remember you. But you were gone, like before. It was ironic that after 'you' left, this song played on the radio. 

   Say something, I'm giving up on you
   I'll be the one, if you want me to
   Anywhere, I would've followed you
   Say something, I'm giving up on you

If it was really you, I am sure you know that it was you who gave up on us many years ago...

Friday, January 03, 2014


OMG, it's 2014 already! I realised that I've not been updating this blog for the last few months. I had to update my work and Gedung Kuning websites regularly that I almost abandoned this blog... But hey, it's a new day, a new dawn and a new year! 

To recap my activities since my children's book launch last March:

  • I was busy doing research for 'Days of Rage', a Channel NewsAsia (CNA) documentary series. Watch out for them on air this month.
  • I spent the summer in England and France to rest, reflect and research (never ending!)
  • I've been building up my little business - working hard and networking. I broke even in my first year. Made a little profit in 2013. At least I'm not in the reds or in debts! Must push on.
  • I did a book reading at an assembly programme in a primary school and it was so much fun!
  • I conducted a 'Writing to Heal' workshop for children in underprivileged communities in Kuala Lumpur last month.
  • I'm still active with Club HEAL. In fact, the Ex-Co and staff are going on a retreat this weekend.
  • I was given publicity by The PEAK (gosh!) and
  • Disappointed with organisations rejecting my funding application for my third book 'Malay Weddings don't cost $50 and Other Facts about Malay Culture'... never mind, the book will still be published this year.
  • Got some funding from the National Heritage Board (NHB) for my other 2 books - Kg Glam and Kg Tempe. Thank you God!
  • Made new friends, yes one of them has been following this blog and is a fan! (I'm looking at you N_ _ _ _ _ )
  • Ups and downs. Discovering that people are not what they seem to be. And that this world is but a stage for some 'performers'. I decided to cut down on unwanted drama and disassociate with toxic people.  

2014 Resolution? I'll stick to this one key factor that drives me forward every single day:

“By Al-’Asr (the time). Verily! Man is in loss.” Al-Quran 103:1.

Not to sound morbid, but time (the uncertainty of death) motivates me. As we don’t know when our time will be up, I believe we should maximise our stay on this earth by doing good deeds, strengthening our ukhuwwah (relationships with others), embarking on our goals and dreams, learning new things and seizing the day.